Mountains to climb...

Today I have had so much on my mind and heart. Just a moment ago I was thinking about the mountain ahead of me, wondering how on earth I am going to make it over the mountain. I just do not have the energy to fight this next leg of my journey with Him. It seems never ending to me and I once again see darkness ahead of me. I am confronted with serious issues of me. Yes me! I am confronted with decisions I need to make and to prepare myself for what is yet to come. As I thought of these things, I sense the Lord speaking to my heart and the words were “I think I can, I think I can, I think I can” I instantly remembered a book called “The Little Engine that Could” Only Abba would know that book was one of my favorites as a child. So on this journey, I must say those words I think I can as I chug along the track over the mountain to where I will then be able to say “I thought I could, I thought I could, I thought I could” The clown on that train was someone that encouraged the Little Blue Engine along the way. I think we all need an encourager to help us along life’s journey. Without that we might not be strong enough to say I think I can! I have my encourager besides the Holy Spirit and she has been my strength in past and now and I thank her so much for being that person in my life and more! (Thanks Sara!)
You know we need a friend like that in our lives. We aren’t meant to walk alone!
Sometimes though we do feel so alone when we walk the hardest parts of our journey. We often think no one could possibly understand what we are going through and to a certain extent that is so true but more often than not people do understand the feelings and the fears and the frustrations because they have felt them too.
I just know that at this time of my life I have to really place my trust in God and no other for it is ONLY God that will let His plan flow together. He does it because He loves us! It is so hard though, especially when you do not see the full picture but only part and you wonder what will happen next. That to me is actually scary. It is like turning a corner not knowing what you may run into! That might be either more heartache or joy!
I am at a place where if it all blows up I am left with nothing except Jesus! I know, He is in control and for that I am grateful. He knows what He is doing!
So I submit myself to the hands of the Potter and let Him mold me on the wheel… I submit myself to the silversmith and let Him refine me, I submit myself to the gardener and let Him tend and prune me. All in All I choose to abide in the vine, to rest in His hands, to hide under the shelter of His wings and let Him restore within me that which was lost! You called. I respond… Here I AM Lord! I am Yours!

Blessings to you,
Jennifer Shannon