King Eternal

Majesty
King eternal
Heavens open above
You sing
Of Perfect Love
Like a river it flows
Touching hearts
Wherever it goes
Incline your ear
Can you see?
Do you hear?
His voice whispering
Follow me
Seek my face
Be free
Be free
In this place

© August 29th 3007 Jennifer Shannon

Find a resting place within me Oh My Lord and King!

I love the song Fire by night. It makes me realise how much He desires to find a place of habitation within us. Unfortunately we are too often in some kind of darkness in our walk with Jesus that He cannot fully inhabit us. Until we let go of much, there will be so little of His Spirit within us. We are to be a resting place for Him but if we are not rested and open wide, He cannot be that fire by night or cloud by day within us.
So what must we do to allow Him to fully inhabit us? We need to realise that sin has no place in His light and therefore we must place it at the cross, at the feet of Jesus so that He can toss it into the bottomless sea forever. It takes a being honest with ourselves. Are we truly honest with how we live our lives for Him or do we try to sweep some of it under the rug in hopes no one really notices? I am finding that I am becoming more honest with myself and yes it is a painful process however the results should be glorious and freedom should be ever present.
I think if many of us were honest with ourselves we would lead better lives for Him and we would not have the need to hide within or lie to ourselves.
I want Him to fully inhabit me and to find a resting place within. I want to be so full and overflowing with His spirit that nothing else matters but Him. I want to be so full of faith that I will get to see the mountain I speak to move into the depths of the sea. This will only happen if I am fully honest with myself, and most importantly with Him. It scares me but I am in for the long haul... the journey to freedom and joy in my life!
What about you?

Thoughts on Relationships

Hmm ever tried to write and have so much to say but cannot put it on paper or in this case blog it because you don’t know what to say??? It seems like an oxymoron to me. Frustrating really.
Your feelings on certain topics want to come out but it cannot for some reason. It is a tug of war inside. Sometimes you know what the topic is.... but to put into words. It’s almost impossible. Perhaps it is because there are no words to describe or to explain what is churning up inside.
Maybe if I keep writing the dam would burst open?
Taking a deep breath.
Have you ever been in a friendship or any kind of relationship that you work on for a long time but still have moments when you experience flight... the urge to run? I usually feel this way when I am feeling insecure about myself.
I often think about relationships and how they work. It is different for everyone I suppose. What works for one may not work for another. Thus each relationship is treated differently.
Jesus had different relationships with His apostles, John being the closest. I suppose it is a matter of choice how deep or how close we want to be with a person and keep it very healthy along the way.
There are many friendships in the bible some were close ones and others were not. Age difference didn’t even matter as long as there was support from both parties. Some of these friendships lasted for a long time but others did not.
I notice that there are some people that have many friends; there is no lack for them in this area. They are constantly with a friend, talking to someone and developing relationships where as there are some of us that only have one or two close friends and really do not spread ourselves thin. We can keep commitments easier and not bail out at the last minute.
I don’t know but I seem to be the kind that has few to no friends at all, with the exception Jesus of course. I desire to know more people but struggle with keeping up with more than one or two friends. I sometimes feel hopeless in that area. I have so many people on my msn list and email lists but I rarely make the initiative to keep in touch with them. I tend to wait for them to talk to me only because most of the time I have nothing to say and because it takes so much effort and energy to maintain a relationship. I guess I am just lazy in this area and so it’s my own fault and I shouldn’t complain.
I am the kind of person that can be confided and what is shared doesn’t go beyond my lips. I am so not in the business of destroying friendships and I don’t mind when someone dumps on me. Interestingly enough I often forget what is said within 24-48 hours after it is said. I might still know what it was about but not the exact wording. I learned some hard lessons on this long ago and it took a while to be trusted again and to trust myself as well.
Gee I don’t even know why I am writing all this… but I guess the dam opened up somewhat.
Is it possible to be feeling offended when you are not fully sure what you are offended about yet you have this sinking feeling inside? I think it is possible and it just stirs within for days. God says to put aside our offense but what if you aren’t even sure why it is there in the first place or maybe you do but have no words to express it? Gosh it’s such a battle within especially from a person like me who has strong emotions and it just rages within. I couldn’t even begin to explain how I feel. There aren’t words strong enough, big enough on this earth to explain it. How I hate that!
I just continue to hope and try to believe it will all work out in time. Meanwhile I just have to continue to trust and believe that I am still in existence in peoples lives and that I am loved and cared for. Also I need to just stop feeling like I have to flee. It’s that flight or fight syndrome. I end up fighting to survive rather than fleeing from the situation even if it tears me apart within me.
Why did I end up being so passionate about friendships? Couldn’t God have given me something else to be more passionate about instead? He must have a reason but for the life of me I haven’t the foggiest idea what or why?
Ahh well Life must go on and so must I!
This touched only the surface of how I am feeling. The ability to go deeper and put it into words may take some time especially when I need to be honest with myself and not hide within!

Just my crazy thoughts!

Just a little longer....

I have been listening to a song called "Just a little longer" sung by Jenn Johnson.
It really gets my heart inside. The words go like this...

A little longer
w/m by: Jenn Johnson

What can I do for you
What can I give to you
What kind of song would you like me to sing

I’ll dance a dance for you
I’ll pour out my love to you
What can I give to you beautiful king
Chorus:

Cause I can’t thank you enough
I can’t thank you enough (repeat)

Then I hear you sing to me
You don’t have to do a thing
Just simply be with me and let those things go
It can wait another minute
Wait this moment is to sweet please stay here here with me

And love on me a little longer
Cause I’m in love with you


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It really speaks of how much He wants us to love on Him a little longer and Him loving us a little longer... just letting go and staying with Him. Its so precious.
Our Daddy loves us so much He desires us to be with Him and loves every moment spent together with His children. How much do we desire to be with Him.. to stay with Him because its such a sweet time, a sweet moment and because He is in love with us!!!

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He really loves us!

Be blessed!!!

Mountains to climb...

Today I have had so much on my mind and heart. Just a moment ago I was thinking about the mountain ahead of me, wondering how on earth I am going to make it over the mountain. I just do not have the energy to fight this next leg of my journey with Him. It seems never ending to me and I once again see darkness ahead of me. I am confronted with serious issues of me. Yes me! I am confronted with decisions I need to make and to prepare myself for what is yet to come. As I thought of these things, I sense the Lord speaking to my heart and the words were “I think I can, I think I can, I think I can” I instantly remembered a book called “The Little Engine that Could” Only Abba would know that book was one of my favorites as a child. So on this journey, I must say those words I think I can as I chug along the track over the mountain to where I will then be able to say “I thought I could, I thought I could, I thought I could” The clown on that train was someone that encouraged the Little Blue Engine along the way. I think we all need an encourager to help us along life’s journey. Without that we might not be strong enough to say I think I can! I have my encourager besides the Holy Spirit and she has been my strength in past and now and I thank her so much for being that person in my life and more! (Thanks Sara!)
You know we need a friend like that in our lives. We aren’t meant to walk alone!
Sometimes though we do feel so alone when we walk the hardest parts of our journey. We often think no one could possibly understand what we are going through and to a certain extent that is so true but more often than not people do understand the feelings and the fears and the frustrations because they have felt them too.
I just know that at this time of my life I have to really place my trust in God and no other for it is ONLY God that will let His plan flow together. He does it because He loves us! It is so hard though, especially when you do not see the full picture but only part and you wonder what will happen next. That to me is actually scary. It is like turning a corner not knowing what you may run into! That might be either more heartache or joy!
I am at a place where if it all blows up I am left with nothing except Jesus! I know, He is in control and for that I am grateful. He knows what He is doing!
So I submit myself to the hands of the Potter and let Him mold me on the wheel… I submit myself to the silversmith and let Him refine me, I submit myself to the gardener and let Him tend and prune me. All in All I choose to abide in the vine, to rest in His hands, to hide under the shelter of His wings and let Him restore within me that which was lost! You called. I respond… Here I AM Lord! I am Yours!

Blessings to you,
Jennifer Shannon