Life: A mind of its own!

Life has a mind of it's own. You never know which way it will go sometimes. Mine has been a whirlwind of events that have been painful ones. It has been a sad summer but I look forward to a new season where things will die in Autumn and get ready for new life in the Spring. God has a way of orchestrating things that sometimes we do not understand yet it has drawn me closer and deeper into His heart and presence. His Love beats in my heart every moment of the day, His hands take the tears and put them in a place safe where they do not fall and shatter on the ground below. He places them in a bottle to be filled up for reasons I will never know nor would I understand.
I lost two beautiful friends whom I loved and adored. They chose to no longer have me in their life for reasons I cannot understand. One was a 9 yr friendship, what a beautiful one it was. It was full of life and love and a closeness that I do not know I will ever attain again. It was full of trust and honor and respect. She shined in a way that I never seen someone shine before, she has the beauty of the Rose and the precious heart that loved so deep and cared so wide. It all changed in the blink of an eye for me. We met finally and everything crumbled before my very own eyes. The enemy finally succeed it breaking up the one relationship that was a threat to his kingdom. Oh Im sure this wasn't the only one but it was not his first attempt in destroying what we had and I hope it is not the last. Only God can pave the way to restoration and reconciliation. I must remain fallow in my heart, with softness , tenderness and compassion. It would be too easy to become angry, bitter and unforgiving but that is NOT the Father's way.
The second friend was just entering a new phase yet it crumbled before my very own eyes as well. I do not know why and may never know why. My heart is so big and so loving yet it was crushed. Papa whispered, I will take care of it all, just remain in Me and I will lead you to a place you do not yet see. So while I still hurt from these two major events that were like someone dying, I remain hopeful that both will be resurrected again and the Joy will abound and the Love will flow. Oh yes I am a dreamer and I dream big things, real or not I believe and have faith in all things! These two precious women of God will always be loved and cherished into eternity. If we are never friends again on earth, we will be in Heaven for there will be no such thing as having an enemy! That will be a glorious day! Yet I perfer not to wait that long! :-)
As I said earlier God has a way of orchestrating things in our lives. We may not understand or know why it is heading a certain direction than what we expect, we must trust the Savior within our very own heart and know that He sees all!
It has been a learning curve for me yet I do miss my friend terribly. I loved talking to her and hearing about the things in her life, I loved sharing my heart and she even listened and loved me through it. Oh I will never forget the precious words of life she spoke into my heart and I into hers. I truly truly miss her, I cannot express with words how my heart feels but God knows and is walking me through the pain and sorrow of such a loss! I thank Him so much and love my Lord more than anything in the whole wide world. Without Him I would not be here today to tell you this story! Well I think I will end here and I will do my best to blog more. I am called to write but what and how is a different story! :-)